For Widows Only Forum

Hi everyone-Today was my oldest daughter's 36th birthday and the first one she's had since he died. We went to this Pub she wanted to go to and everyone was there but Jim. There was an empty seat and my little grandson commented-we need another person Grandma....After we were done eating we conversed outside for a minute waiting for my youngest daughter and the conversation turned to Jim...we all were thinking the same thing. I love it when we talk about Jim as a family-it brings him to life again for a few minutes. Well we all got in our cars and I couldn't get out of there fast enough...for the tears to fall and I could converse with Jim as I drove home...I miss you so, and I love you so....then a few minutes later I started to laugh at something my oldest daughter said about her Dad. This grieving stinks with the ups and downs....the roller coaster has struck again.

how sweet that your wonderful grandson recognized your hurt in loss, and wanted to make you feel better, and it sounds like your family is very caring and loving, i gotten so much the opposite , that no one is very nice about him gone, and none even recognize my grief, in fact they have all made it worse in one way or another, you sound like you have a very supportive and loving family, and I think that is more semi sweet than semi sour, and you probably still adjusting and with this a first
was hard to go through so your reaction is normal
and you deserve a good cry at times, remember that,
I know how different it all used to be, and some times wish that I could go back instead of forward....also.

yes my grandson is quite intuitive and the cutest 4 year old you ever saw. Funny he still remembers his Grandpa Jim and tells my daughter how much he misses him....pretty good for a 4 year old. Now my granddaughter who is 7 took the news of Grandpa's death by saying now Grandpa is up in heaven with God. Out of the mouth of Babes...

Well just got done with the water filter and the tears come again. I feel like I will never stop crying over Jim. He was the greatest gift that I ever was given....now he's gone. I pray everynight for God to take care of him....he was so special to me. I am a half of a whole now and probably always will be.